Thursday, 19 July 2012

Rescue Rescue

 I was standing in a parking lot that was quite full with cars and people. There was a road running alongside this parking lot. I was standing near that road. Out of the corner of my eye I spot a baby crawling into the center of the street. As you would expect, the alarm in my mind went off and I bolted into the street as a car came racing up to the little one. With real force I ran to the baby and quickly swept her into my arms and carried her across the street. When the road was clear I crossed back into the parking lot to find the mother of this child. I found a group of woman and children standing around. They were unaware of the rescue and looked completely unfazed by the missing infant. The woman were yapping and chattering and clammering on. I shouted out "Whose baby is this ?!?!?!"
 A tall woman with a pale complexion and long brown hair looked over to me and with reaction that suggested indifference, said... "It's mine" and put out her arms to retrieve her child. "Your baby was crawling in the road !!" She didn't seem to mind and jerked her head backwards as if to say "hand it over". I did not hand it over. I couldn't. I moved away from the group to another woman standing by that had seen the event and told her that I didn't think this child was safe with this woman. She said you need to call child services. I said I don't know this woman at all.. I don't know. I held tight to the child. It was very very small. Too young to crawl really. I got on the phone and called child services and reported the incident. "I don't want you to take the child away. I just want you to scare the shit out of that woman". The mother was glaring at me and the other two women who now appeared to be her sisters. I hung up the phone. 

The parking lot environment shifted into a courtyard that led to my apartment with a hot tub in the centre. I was holding the baby to my chest. Somehow and without transition the baby found his way to my bare tit. He attempted to suckle. I was shocked by this and made uneasy but I let the process continue. I had never had a child and have never produced milk and somehow I was extremely curious to know if I would indeed produce milk for the hungry child in need of nurturance. He latched on and sucked.. hard... For just a moment or two when I felt a release and a moisture. And from a drop to a spray the child coaxed a mothers milk from a maiden. My right breast swelled up more plump than it had ever before. The milk rushed out of me and made a spraying/flushing type noise. I could feel the milk coursing through the ducts and out into the baby's mouth. My whole body came alive, I was ecstatic. I knew then I was to keep the child. 

The sisters came rushing out of my apartment carrying all sorts of my possessions. They yelled to me "You're not getting away with this".   

I followed them into what looked like a a candy shop with bright lights and a soda fountain... colors everywhere. The child protection agent was there and the mother's lawyer. They handed over all the items to their lawyer. "We're gonna put you away" they pointed, and shouted and showed their teeth. 

My sister arrived.. She saw my possessions on the counter and said "Ha ! Remember that time we..." I cut her off.. "Shhhhh. They are going to try and lock me up with these items" 
I had full confidence that through these strange events I had become a mother. 

7 comments:

  1. Wow, what a terrifying dream. Terrifying, but upon reflection, how do you feel about that ending?

    [this may not be the forum for it, but I was led here after listening to your most recent album. it's one of the best things i've heard all year. really fantastic. thank you for it.]

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  2. Weird that I should stumble upon this today. I had the same daydream as I drove to work this morning. I distinctly saw a baby sitting in the middle of Big Bend. I had a plan to swerve my car around in front of it and protect it from the oncoming traffic. I would open my door and scoop it up, return it safely to the sidewalk and find the fool who would let it cross into the busy road. I don't think it says anything about unfulfilled needs to have children, just a need to right the wrongs of society.

    I loved your dream. It does say a lot about you.

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  3. Yup, you want a baby. BUT, you're career is indifferent to that need. The baby is in the road. You travel roads, you have to stop on the road to get the baby. They are trying to prevent you from having the baby by using your stuff against you, i.e the acutrements of your career.

    "I don't want you to take the child away. I just want you to scare the shit out of that woman"

    This indicates a waivering between the two conditions, indecision.

    "The parking lot environment shifted into a courtyard that led to my apartment with a hot tub in the centre"

    Luxury. Fame. Royalty.

    "I followed them into what looked like a a candy shop with bright lights and a soda fountain... colors everywhere"

    Again, bright lights, big city, lots of "goodies" with these women.

    Pray. Choose.

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